When will the “nightmare” marriage end?

Why are men so unreliable? I have been wondering why my luck is such a bad choice for such a man? I used to think that he was good, but now I think about it, I was there. How stupid, how stupid. For the sake of children, maintaining empty shell marriages is too much, too chaotic, and too complicated. I don’t know when to say it. Let’s start from the first time my husband derailed. It was 2003, and the child just turned 3 years old. I used to be very confident. I feel that we are deeply in love. He will not betray me, so when others talk to me, I still don’t believe it. It was his cousin and cousin who reminded me that he must have been outside, and I said at the time that he would not. But the facts were placed in front of me. He called the woman and I heard it. Later I called the phone and asked who the woman was. The woman said to me righteously: “You care who I am, ask your husband, you know who I am.” I never thought that such a thing would happen to me, I collapsed, and I fainted at the time. . After I woke up, I was the only one in the family. The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I wanted. The more I thought about it, the more desperate I was. I took the medicine and committed suicide. In a confused way, I called him and I said, I will fulfill you. After that, I called my friend again. I said, come and collect the corpse. Maybe, my life should not be, I survived. After another period of trouble, all the people were persuading me, and my husband assured me that it was broken with the woman. I think it is not easy to form a home. Who is not at fault, even in the past, after all, we still have children. For the sake of the child, if he can change the past, I decided not to go on and live with him. Xiao Bian recommended: How to maintain the stimulating and energetic marriage of the six major “stumbling stones” in the couple’s life, but he disappointed me. He and the woman have been broken. After half a year, I bought a new phone. He saw it, and he had to change the phone with me. He was too careless. Some of the old text messages in his old mobile phone were not deleted. The woman asked for money from him and said that her family was sick. After I saw it, there was no buzzing. I chose to endure it. I chose to close one eye with one eye. As long as the child sees a complete home, I don’t care. I don’t want to let the child down and feel uncomfortable. Since then, our relationship has faded. Since then, I have made up my mind to work hard, earn money, bring good children, and no longer rely on him. The child was seriously ill, and the idea of ​​giving up the divorce was so intermittent that in 2008, my dad passed away. I was very upset, and during that time I felt that my life was completely disrupted. I have been immersed in that kind of pain. During this time, in my most painful time, he I chose to hurt me again. He did not go home for various reasons, saying that he would go out to do things, but his mobile phone was also turned off, and no one could find anyone. As LELO said, a happy couple lives and needs maintenance from both sides, not unilaterally. I am still in the soft heart to make myself more difficult to face myself, this life is no longer suitable for me. These don’t matter to me. I have already died on him, no feelings, no hope. Then he went with the woman, the phone was turned off, and no one could find anyone for a whole week. Finally, I said that I want to report to the police, but his family will not let me do that. But my patience is limited. I finally sent him an ultimatum through his family. If it doesn’t appear, I will call the police. He came home. I didn’t ask him where he was this week, who he was with, didn’t even ask a question, no need. I made a divorce directly to him. He didn’t want to, and his family always advised me. But my mind has been decided, I submitted a divorce indictment to the court. Unexpected things happened. When I was going to court, my child was ill and was leukemia. I have withdrawn my case for the sake of the child. I decided to give the child a complete home. I talked with my husband once, I said, for the children, we start again. But do you know what he said? He actually said: “When you have the ability, you want to kick me off, use me and my family, and you withdraw the complaint.” At that moment my heart was frozen into ice. But for the sake of the child, I did not care about him. I only hope that he can take good care of the children. Who knows, he entered the police station three days later. The woman quarreled with her colleague, and the colleague called her husband, and the woman called him. Two women quarreled, two men fought, and later joined the police station. At that time, the police comrades at the police station called me, but I just stood there and looked coldly. Anyway, everything has nothing to do with me. In fact, our feelings before marriage are quite good, but my self-motivation is stronger than him. I have been working hard in Zhengzhou for so many years. When I first came to Zhengzhou, I cleaned the room at the hotel. I cleaned 30 people. One day, I was tired of what I could have imagined. The whole person was falling apart. I went to the street and set up a stall to go to the silver base to help people sell clothes. I walked over and got my own business. I didn’t say who I looked down, I respected everyone. But he is different. He thinks I am stronger than him. He feels inferior. When he made his mistake for the first time, he told me that he could find the dignity of a man in front of other women. The second time he made a mistake, he told me that if I could make a big fight with him like another woman, he would not make a second mistake. Is this like a man saying? Woman is strong Point, is it wrong? Is it wrong for a woman to rely on herself? To hurt a child, determined to divorce him. I only want to maintain this empty marriage with the child, but he has repeatedly hurt the child. Because I usually do business, I have to make money for my child to see a doctor, to cure my illness, but I am busy, so I will let him accompany the child in the hospital at night. Later, doctors and nurses told me that he couldn’t see him at night. He threw the child into the hospital alone, every night. Once he went to the hospital, the child was infusion, he rushed into the ward, and pulled the infusion tube out. He shouted at the child: “Don’t cure. You die, you die, you are dead. I am relieved.” These words were heard by doctors and nurses. He always said that the child can’t be cured, and spending money is also a white flower. I have spent more than 100,000 yuan to treat my child. He took 10,000 for the first time, 2,300 yuan for the second time, 5,000 yuan for the child, and 2,000 yuan for the child. The rest It is me. Not only that, when the child was discharged from the hospital last time, there were more than 1,000 yuan in the account. He hurriedly gave the child a discharge procedure, did not check the child, took the money, and immediately left. It took 10 days for more than 1,000 yuan. Without money, he is back. The child’s medical expenses can be reimbursed. He took those orders and reported more than 1,000 yuan, and then disappeared. That’s how he is. If he has money, he will go out and fool around. If he has no money, he will come back to ask me for money and steal my money. I used to do business, and the money in my pocket was never counted. He turned my pocket. Later, I found out that I only put 10 yuan in my pocket, enough for me and my children to eat. Then he had no money, and I couldn’t steal money from me. He started to beat me and played almost every day. During that time, I was always scarred. He went around to borrow money and swindle money. As long as he knew him, he would borrow and lie, and he would have become a street mouse. Even the family members of the small patients in the hospital borrowed money from others. Those families were seriously ill, and he was too poor. He borrowed money from others. If he borrowed it, he would have to pay for it. Once, a little girl stopped me and asked if I could borrow her 200 yuan and said she had no money to eat. Later I learned that he borrowed money from the girl’s father, but he never lost it. I know very well that the money he borrowed and deceived was nothing to do with the woman’s food and drink. However, whether he is with the woman now does not matter, now it is important that I want to divorce him. I used to be in this marriage for the children and he, now I want to divorce him for the children. He is not worthy to be my husband, not to be the father of the child. When the child saw him, he saw the mouse. Like a cat, I am very scared. This nightmare, how can I end my determination to divorce, but he has always threatened me, if I must divorce him, he will go with me and the children. I don’t even dare to go back home. I rented a room outside with my child. I broke off contact with all my loved ones, and I was afraid that he would find me and my children. This year’s Spring Festival is my lonely child in Zhengzhou. I don’t dare to go back home. Sometimes I really miss home, especially want to go back to my hometown to see my mother. But now he forced me to go nowhere. I really want to end this nightmare as soon as possible. But he just refused to let me go. He said that as long as he divorced me, I would like to live. He has lost his mind. Once we were fighting, he glared at my neck and stunned me. When I woke up, I found myself lying on the ground. He sat on the bed and stared at me with fierce light. He didn’t pull me. My current life is very abnormal. I smiled and sent my son to kindergarten and returned home. When I was in the house, I used my wine to numb myself. I don’t know how long the child can live. I don’t dare to think about it for a year or two. Really tired and tired. I am completely supporting the children now, and sometimes I really feel that I can’t keep up. The child’s attending doctor often advises me: “If you die, the child will not survive. You must persist and face it bravely.” But how can I face it? He is already crazy. I don’t know how to end it. I just want to live quietly with my children. When I miss home, I can go home and see if I don’t want to walk on the street. I have to worry about whether he is around or not. I am staring at me. This kind of day is really terrible. I don’t want to say that he is so much. I want to come out now and how to face a new life. My current life is completely chaotic, and I can’t end it, so I can’t start again. My friends advised me that I couldn’t do it. I took my child to another place for treatment. Do I really only have to leave this road to leave? Guess you like: 5 kinds of sex skills, first night, couples, honeymoon period, more attention, please pay attention to Feihua Health Network gender channel: http://sex.fh21.com. Cn